The Weekend's Holidays

Happy Impractical Joke Day!! Yes, that's today's holiday. I began to think about what would constitute an impractical joke. In order for it to be so, it would have to be ridiculously expensive or require that one goes way out of their way to make it as real as possible. There was only one thing I could think of right off the top of my head:

And with that... we move on to this weekend's holidays. I'm presenting them now since I probably won't be online this weekend to provide the holidays on a day to day basis over the weekend.

Saturday: PIMP DAY!

Yeah boyyyy.... Tomorrow, warm up your bitch-slappin' hand and let your inner pimp come out to play! It's official pimp day tomorrow. :) I know I'm looking forward to that... there's a few people I wouldn't mind slapping up the side of the head and saying, "Yo, where's my money, biotch!?"

Sunday: First Day of Panty Liner Week

These often unsung heroes of feminine hygiene are daily necessities for some and fond (or not-so-fond) rememberances for others. I don't know why we have an entire week for it... but that's what the list says and the list, of course, "is an absolute good" as Stern would say (and no I don't mean Howard). I'll spare you the image that goes with this holiday. Just remember to think about how important proper usage and care of your feminine wares is this week. Otherwise, you might end up like this:

Peace, Love and Happiness...

--Jenna

Pandora

I recently started playing around with Pandora again. I forgot how much I liked it. As it's building a list of songs for you, it starts explaining why. This made me giggle today. I put in DJ Encore and it said:

"We'll start off with this track by DJ Encore which highly exemplifies his style which contains disco influences, romantic lyrics, female vocals, highly synthetic sonority, a tight kick sound, and prevalent use of groove."

For those of you who don't know what Pandora is... it's the public exposure to something called The Music Genome Project. It's a pretty cool idea... basically the concept is that each song has identifiable characteristics. The service can then use these characteristics to provide you with music that you'll love every time if you give honest feedback.

The thing is.. there's an ineffable quality to a track that exists in much the same way as the ineffable quality of life in a person. You either like it or you don't. You can hear another track that is technically very similar to one that you like and yet still hate it. It's the song's soul or spirit, if you will. Try and define it any other way, I dare you. :)

Anyway, just thought I would share. Back to work now.

National Fashion Victim Day

Following up with today's holiday... it's National Fashion Victim Day!! Yes, today is the day we celebrate all the fashion victims out there. It's their day people... so let them know they're loved and appreciated! Every day, you meet someone who simply couldn't be fashionable in any era. Well today is the day that you let them know that it's okay for them to be who they are, wear what they want and look however they want to look.

So, uhm... yeah. So anyway, I woke up today feeling pretty good. There were three text messages from Sadao. He had a bad night at work last night. It sucks that he works at night and is therefore up all night and asleep when I'm awake. :( But we got to talk a little this morning... he was still awake. Nyssa asked me once what it was about him that got to me so much. I can answer that with a few lines from a song by DJ Encore and Englina called "You've Got A Way"

♫ You’ve got a way of making sunshine of the rain ♫
♫ You’ve got a way of turning ashes into flames ♫
♫ I can’t believe you’re making darkness into light ♫
♫ You’re making all my contradictions turn out right ♫

Or another song by them called "High On Life"

♫ You make me feel high on life ♫
♫ When I’m with you I can fly ♫
♫ I wouldn’t stop this feeling ♫
♫ I wouldn’t stop this feeling ♫
♫ It makes me feel high on life ♫
♫ Intensifies what’s inside ♫
♫ I wouldn’t stop this feeling from taking over ♫

Yup... that's the feeling I get. Why would I ever want to be away from that feeling? It reminds me of a time not so long ago when I was free to be me without the feeling that I was a bad person if someone else disapproved. It's a delicate balance of two things:

1) I want to be loved for who I am. This is the natural side. This is the side that people see when you wake up in the morning and you look like holy hell (in your own opinion). This is the side that comes through when you laugh at something that you find funny. This is the side that takes selfish pleasures and let's their hair completely down even if it's ratty and nasty.

2) I want to be loved for who I choose to be. This is the creative side. This is the side that puts on makeup, wears funky clothing, wears exotic jewelry in odd places, This is the actor side of us on this global stage called Earth.

Too many times, I hear people say, "You don't have to look that way, be that way or act that way. Just be who you are." Or I hear, "Why don't you put more effort into yourself and express yourself more?" LOL... can't win for losing can we?

So yeah, I look for people that don't ask me why. They just accept, believe and just be. And Sadao does that for me. So do a few others... but typically I get one side or the other from people. I love myself as I am... but I also love who I can become... and that can change on a daily basis so be prepared. :)

At any rate, I've said more than I was going to say and it's getting late... so I'm going to close this for now. Happy Fashion Victim Day everyone!

Peace,
Jenna

Build-Your-Own Holiday Day

According to some list I found on the web, today is "Build-Your-Own Holiday Day." It has a holiday for every day of the year. So I am going to be listing them all now... one each day. So... everyone have fun today and make your own holiday. Mine is "National Bird Poop Recognition Day." Have fun peeps.

Peace,
Jenna

From Here

5/8/2009 Note: This was a private post in my Live Journal... I unlocked it because it just makes me laugh now. :)

Okay Jenna... this is a private post. Talk plainly. You're a dumbass a lot. You think things through only for yourself and you don't take into account anyone else's feelings. Sure, you can say that it's their feelings as much as you want but in the end it's YOUR actions that are creating this reality. So fix it! You know what to do. Now do it.

21st Century Religion

So, once again, thanks to Jose I have something fun for you to read. Found on The Onion, here it is:

I'm In An Open Relationship With The Lord

With Jesus as my personal Savior, I felt like I had it all. But then we hit a rough patch, and before long, I was beginning to question both my...

Just click on the headline and you'll be able to read the entire article. Now understand that this site is a humor site and it's meant to be taken lightly. But then again... so should religion and faith, in my opinion. If your heart isn't light, there's something wrong.

Peace,
Jenna

Le Weekend

Yes... the French call it "Le Weekend." I guess they're sorta like Hollywood... no new ideas brewing there.

Anyway, about my weekend. Well, let's start by backing up a little bit and filling in some things left out about Thursday.

All week I had been waffling about going out with Sadao to meet his dad. I just wasn't sure if it was something I wanted to do. My feelings about him have been in a state of flux for a long time and I was beginning to think that perhaps I should just leave well enough alone. But he really wanted me to go. On top of that, I wasn't sure whether or not my roomies had planned something or not... so I was just feeling blah about the whole thing.

When I got home, I started thinking more about it and decided that I really did want to go after all. So, I called Sadao and he and Brian and I went down to Melbourne. I got to meet his dad. His dad's a very VERY nice man and showered his son with gifts. He doesn't know how to relate to him and hence has made some suggestions that Sadao rejects, but he does love him very much.

After dinner, I helped clean up and his dad talked with me. He was very grateful that Sadao had friends to look after him. I felt kindof awkward at that point. I don't think we ever really feel older than our high-point of fun and friendship in life and always want to keep that going. So, it was quite natural when being around a 21 year-old bundle of energy to want to slip right back into those days of yore myself. But seeing the look of concern on his dad's face, I understood that he's worried for his son given his son's gentle heart and easily-taken-advantage -of nature.

Between then and now, my feelings for Sadao have definitely migrated more into a big sister/little brother realm and it's kinda fun that way. I never had a younger sibling so now I get the chance to be a teacher again.

So after dinner, we went out to Cold Keg. It's a little gay bar in Melbourne but for some reason they were playing Hip-Hop there. I was about ready to puke. Finally, the show started which was an amateur strip contest... and none other than Page King was hosting the show. I couldn't believe it! I was gratified to see her on my birthday and she bought me a shot. We ended the night by closing the bar and I took Brian and Sadao back to the parking lot at Boardwalk Bowl so they could get Brian's car and head home.

My head was still reeling a little from all that had transpired in meeting his dad. Hadn't sorted it all out yet.

Friday, I went in late as expected and did my thing. That night, I visited a friend of mine that was laid off from Radixx. He wanted to get copies of all my music so I took my portable drive over there. Lo and Behold, my drive suddenly stopped working. I was in a panic! All of my pictures, my original music, my documents, EVERYTHING was on that drive and had not yet been backed up!! I was beside myself. Carlos and I still had a good time together tho as we surfed the web and he ripped some of the CDs I had brought. I was fretting a little tho.

Saturday, Sadao and I went to Port St. Lucie to visit Jose and Nyssa and the bobbins. I took my turntables and some records and we visited, ate and danced. I started teaching Sadao how to spin records and he's starting to get the hang of it. He doesn't have beat-matching down yet, but his ear for mixing is interesting. By watching him, I learned a few tricks myself.

Saturday night, we went out to ReBar. Usually that's a fun place but this weekend it was HipHop nation again. What's up with HipHop at GAY bars? I'm so confused. Anyway, I was watching all the attention Sadao was getting and couldn't help but be a little jealous. I caught myself in this mode and struggled with it for a while. I could put together if I was jealous of him or them or what. I just knew I was in a rut and needed to get my shit sorted out.

Jose gave me a hard drive for my busted computer at home and found out that my other drive (the one I was just talking about) was fine... it was just the external housing that had failed. The only thing getting power was the LED light. Not even the USB port was getting power. So, I breathed a huge sigh of relief at that.

Sunday, we woke up and spent the morning spinning music again. Then around 2:00 we headed home. Got back to Orlando at around 4:30 and I crashed at his apartment until about 6:30. Got home and started putting my computer back together. It's just about 100% now. It's got the OS and drivers and all the required updates from Microsoft. Now I just have to get all my applications and such re-installed AND I have to back up that drive!!

And so with this semi-cathartic weekend behind me, I move forward into a new day that finds me tired. Sleepy, exhausted, etc. but somehow comfortable with the understanding of how things are. And so begins October of 2007.

Peace,
Jenna