All the conflict, all the worry, all the fighting, all the dissenting voices in my head. It all stops today. Today I learn the biggest lesson, finally. If you can't beat 'em, join 'em.
I'm tired. I'm tired of fighting. I'm tired to trying to get my way and never getting anywhere with it. I'm tired of hoping someone will understand an try to compromise. I'm tired of people trying to tell me how to fix some part of my life when they don't really know what's wrong in the first place... and won't bother to actually look to see what it is that's wrong.
So today, I resolved to end it all. It will no longer be a concern for anyone. No one will have to hear me complain ever again. If you can't beat 'em, join 'em. My life, as it was, is over and now something new starts. I will no longer fight the forces that try to control me. I will simply pick one and give it control... and remove all the other forces in my life. I've picked which one it will be. Everyone else will rail at my choice, but it doesn't matter. At least the fighting will finally stop.
