Saturday, December 30, 2006

The day before the day before 2007

So... here it is... Saturday, Dec 30th, 2007. As I sit here, I'm contemplating this past year. A lot has happened. I started it out with a bang. Big party at the old house. That was fun... good memories there. :) From there... well, it's been a rollercoaster. Bought a house, sold a house. Became single... became part of a family... left a job... went back to that job... left it again... contracted in Port St. Lucie... lost some old friends... made some new ones... went insane for a while... (some would say I still have at least one foot in the sanitarium but what do they know anyway?) found my center... my focus... regained my energy... put myself back together again, basically (after tearing it all apart... but it really wasn't working well the way it was anyway).

As anyone who's read my journal knows... it's not been an easy road... but it's been a good one for me. I feel much more at ease, much more relaxed and happy... peaceful and focused. I have a new direction in life and so far it's been leading to good things all around. :) I look forward to 2007 with expectation, excitement and with a wary and more learned eye.

Today, I'm going to Lowes to get the process started to get new windows in the house. Also need to get some more food for the ferrets (and maybe some toys) along with some other household needs. There's a party tonight and I might go for a little while... I don't want to spend all night there since tomorrow night is obviously the big event.

I start a new job on the 2nd. I'm looking forward to that. It should be a lot of fun... always is fun getting to know new people and watch their reactions when they first start to get to know you. hehehe (rubs hands together with glee and an evil, mischievous grin!).

Might get my ears pointed this year... I'd like to... I think it'd be fun. We'll see how this new job works out before I go off and do that. :)

Basically... life is good and so I'm savoring it given the possibility it can (and probably will) change at any given moment. Cherish the moments you have... you never know how many you're going to get. :)


Thursday, December 14, 2006

And now...

Whew... So now I can start thinking about my life again. Why now? Because the old shit is done and the new shit can start. Heh. The house has been sold, finally. Rob and I have nothing left to do with each other, finally. The old mortgages are paid off, finally. Things are starting to look up. I know I've been a terrible burden on some of my friends in how I've dealt with my life. It has been brutal and in typical Jenna fashion I've always tried to make the best out of what I've had to deal with even when it would probably have been better to "recognize the garbage and throw it out when it started to stink". Now that some things are finally finished, I can start paying attention to what I really want to do.

I can still say that I've never been happier where I am right now. Twink and Josh just let me be who I want to be, who I need to be and are always there to listen and be the best friends to me that a person could ever hope to have. The kids are, of course, challenging, fantastic, brilliant, retarded, and everything in between. I love them to death. Looking forward to spending Christmas with them.

This is not to say that we've not had our moments of doubt in this shared living arrangement... lord knows we've found each others' buttons pretty well now. But now I see a new future where we can all live together peacefully and without any drama between us. It's time I started to put back in to the community that has supported me so fully during my time of need.

I'm finally starting to really consider everything that I've started and have subsequently ignored or put on auto-pilot in order to make things easier, etc. It's a tad overwhelming but each day I'm realizing that I'm more and more "up to the challenge." Now, I'm making lists of what I want to get back to, revisit and pick up where I left off. Thank God for Twink. She has helped me out in so many ways I can't even begin to count them all. Whenever I've needed her, she's been there. I don't know what I did to deserve a friend like her... but I'm thankful for it every day.

My contract with Liberty Medical is also finally done. This means no more traveling to Port St. Lucie every day. This is a good thing. Although I will SEVERELY miss those friends I've made there, I am forever grateful for having them in my life and that I was able to touch their lives in a positive way as well. I know that our friendships will always be there and future time spent together will be all that more special (nyaaaaay!).

So now, with the money from the sale of the house, I feel more confident about being able to take my time and REALLY find a job I can sink my teeth into. Something that I can really enjoy, will help meet our needs as a family and still provide me with the funds to do some fun things I like to do (other than being a "family man"). I'm also looking forward to getting back to helping with the house. I'm ready to honor the commitments I made while still wrapping up the details of my old situation.

Basically... life is grand. Let it stay that for a while. :)