Monday, December 3, 2007

A love so good, it makes you cry.

I guess maybe different people qualify friendship in different ways. I discovered something wonderful this weekend. My beliefs were validated, my actions confirmed and the great distance I have traveled in my life's path has been worth all the emotional and spiritual pain I've put myself through.

The details are extremely personal and I will keep them to myself. But I'm here to say that last night, someone saved my life... figuratively and quite literally. Two someone's actually. I've been walking... nay, running actually down a path that has been so self-destructive from feeling of worthlessness that I simply couldn't get past. They culminated and came together this weekend in ways that I never expected.

Many others have given up on me in the past. I was a lost cause, a total screw-up with no future down the path I was going. Well this weekend I fell... and fell hard. But I was caught in the nick of time.

I know this is kinda vague but like I said, the details are very personal. I hold no grudges against those who, in my opinion, had given up on me in the past. I understand their reasons and I know their strength was not enough (or needed elsewhere) to go the distance with me. I am thankful there were those who could though.

My heart knows the true meaning of love and friendship again. Moreso than ever before. Peace, y'all. And be GOOD to each other.

Someone Saved My Life Tonight
Music by Elton John
Lyrics by Bernie Taupin
Available on the album Captain Fantastic and the Brown Dirt Cowboy

When I think of those east end lights, muggy nights
The curtains drawn in the little room downstairs
Prima donna lord you really should have been there
Sitting like a princess perched in her electric chair
And its one more beer and I dont hear you anymore
Weve all gone crazy lately
My friends out there rolling round the basement floor

And someone saved my life tonight sugar bear
You almost had your hooks in me didnt you dear
You nearly had me roped and tied
Altar-bound, hypnotized
Sweet freedom whispered in my ear
Youre a butterfly
And butterflies are free to fly
Fly away, high away, bye bye

I never realised the passing hours of evening showers
A slip noose hanging in my darkest dreams
Im strangled by your haunted social scene
Just a pawn out-played by a dominating queen
Its four oclock in the morning
Damn it listen to me good
Im sleeping with myself tonight
Saved in time, thank God my musics still alive

And I would have walked head on into the deep end of the river
Clinging to your stocks and bonds
Paying your h.p. demands forever
Theyre coming in the morning with a truck to take me home
Someone saved my life tonight, someone saved my life tonight
Someone saved my life tonight, someone saved my life tonight
Someone saved my life tonight
So save your strength and run the field you play alone

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